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So sorry Jeffrey these things happen when your body had never been given time to properly heal!

So it came out in the toilet and I didnt know what to do so I just flushed the tiny little fetus.

You have made me numb and I hate you for this!

I hope I never have to see you again!

I am not your personal incubator!

where is the baby!

where is Ghislaine!!!

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HATE THIS CITY!

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I blamed her for everything, but she didn’t answer. I couldn’t understand her stupid behavior! When I hit her she held still, like a true pacifist. Then I realized what she wanted was for me to love her: She began to warm up, and I saw her advantages.

Without me, she wouldn’t exist, so of course she was grateful. I gave her a soul, I bloomed out of her as a rose Blooms out of a vase of not very valuable porcelain, And it was I who attracted everybody’s attention, Not her whiteness and beauty, as I had at first supposed. I patronized her a little, and she lapped it up— You could tell almost at once she had a slave icitality. i e \ e/

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She wa to leave me, she thought she was superior, And I’d licen keeping her in the dark, and she was resentful— Wasting her days waiting on a half-corpse! And secretly she began to hope I’d die. Then she could cover my mouth and eyes, cover me entirely, And wear my painted face the way a mummy-case Wears the face of a pharaoh, though it’s made of mud and water.

I wasn’t in any position to get rid of her. She’d supported me for so long I was quite limp— I had even forgotten how to walk or sit,

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Through a Child’s Eyes

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So sad this city could be beautiful if it werent filled with monsters.

The blood from Leon is no longer there.

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Tomorrow is the halfway ultrasound for Jeffrey.

This one stuck.

After they took the first baby who survived and the early miscarriage I think it was called I no longer feel like a person but a vessel.

Will they take this one too?

Who has the first one?

Where did Ghislaine go.

She is never around.

I cant let myself get attached. elk _

I am not old or mature enough or even in the place to haveiVy tha+VId be responsible for.

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My body feels so tired.

Will , –14/ I ever be free?

I am such a… monster.

I DIDNT CONSOLE HER!

I CANT UNHEAR HER SCREAMS!

THEY HAUNT ME!

I couldnt even bring myself to look at her. I am a monster. I deserve to be haunted by her screams. I AM SO SORRY

I AM S[ ] BROKEN.